Finding me

I know I'm a mom, a wife, a housekeeper, a laundry doer, basically a domestic goddess I like to call it, but I want to figure out who I really am!  I love to help people, I love people in general, I like listening, I like talking, I love to hug and smile, I like making people feel good about themselves, but I am seriously disturbed that I don't know who I actually am as a person.  I feel I have no footing in this world sometimes!  Those are all of my "traits" above, so maybe that defines me? 

What defines a person?  Their past?  Their present?  Their future?  Memories?  Interests?  Friends??  I go to look that answer up on the internet, and someone else has already asked this question, and someone's response was experience, actions in life and their will & intent.  So what I do on a day to day basis is what defines me?  Why is it that I'm wanting more?  My life just doesn't feel complete for some reason, and I need to find that missing piece! 

I absolutely adore my husband, we've been married for 8 1/2 years, and I love him so much and we say it daily, and actually mean it too!  My children are such blessings to me, they are all 3 so unique, and I love everything about them!  I want to raise them to be great women of the world that do things for others without asking for anything in return, and I believe I have already done that, as I teach them different things each day, and through my actions they see that I am willing to help out anyone and not ask for anything.  I hope that I can be the example they need to live their lives greatly, with intentions of love and blessings to all who they come in contact with. 

So, the family part of my life IS complete... I love every moment!  So, what else is there in life?  Am I missing something?  Have I forgotten something?  What else can I do to make a this world a better place?  I have prayed about this for a very long time, and I suppose writing it now is just releasing it and opening up to myself and really thinking heavily about this subject.  This is my journey in life, we only get one try at this, and I want to make it the best...

My hubby

I'm not sure if my husband will care about me writing something like this, but it seriously scares me, and I just want to get it off my chest!  He's been over the pond 3 times now, and was told yesterday he has a traumatic brain injury and severe PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder).  He is now being helped with this, and I'm so glad, it's not like he's "gone nuts" here at home, but I've noticed severe changes in him each time he came home, and I'm very glad he finally reached out for help.  He can still do his job, and does awesome with it too, so no worries about being medically discharged, so that's great news, but he will be seeing docs a little more often now.  I know all I can do is keep supporting him and of course keep loving him! 

On a positive note, he was told a few days ago that he has been selected to be Instructor of the Cycle!  They are going to vote on it soon, so we'll see if he gets it for real, that would rock!  Although it's not any more moolah LOL!  It is his first time being an instructor, so even being selected is an awesome honor!!  He told me that they said no one has ever taught like he has, he gets the class involved, shares experiences and shows examples of how to save lives.  He's an awesome medic and this is just another thing to prove how great he really is at his job!  I'm just glad he doesn't have to go over the pond again for a couple years anyways!

Home Management

For starters, my home does not stay "together" at all times, but this little binder I created for myself has made things a lot easier, I know what I have to do on a daily basis, and I plan meals a week in advance, plus my finances are right at my fingertips in it as well.  So, I'm working on a project, mainly to help people get rid of clutter and manage their homes more efficiently, and would like input on a few things!

I don't want to post all that I've done so far (it's 16 pages typed so far), but I want feedback (comments or emails) saying what you would like to see in something to help you become better organized, and prepared for each day.

Parent Teacher conferences

Yesterday was the first Parent Teacher meeting with Savannah's teacher.  She is doing fabulous in 1st grade!  I'm so proud of my little girl!  She's above average on quite a few things, we just have to learn how to comprehend a little bit better, she managed to get 5 of 8 on the comprehension part of the test, which is still phenomenal!  She can sit down and read books to me now, even read 133 page book night before last!  She's doing so well!!  Oh, and spelling tests are rockin on through too!

Today was Haley's day for Parent Teacher conference, and WOW!  I'm truly impressed!  My Haley bug apparently is a totally different child when she's at school!  I've been so nervous about hearing about how she acts in class, because when she's home, she starts fights with her sisters, still not sure why she does it, but her teacher said she's an excellent role model for the other children, helps others in class, and does an excellent job on everything she does!  She's learned her letters, and is working on sounds now, and she is doing very well at home working with us, so I'm thrilled to hear she's doing so well in school!

Brianna still hasn't had a parent teacher conference BUT she's doing awesome!  She says they don't do that at her school, so I think I have to request one or something, unlike the Elementary school which schedules them.  She's in 8th grade now, and OMG!  She has A's and B's, she's in 3 Honors classes again this year, and is taking Spanish 1!  She's rockin and rollin!  I'm so proud of her!